The Lost and Found

I was just thinking about how we never know what Heavenly Father has in store for us but when we put our lives in his hands things seem to work out. I was so heartbroken when Jeremy and I lost our first baby. I was not far along at all but when you have wanted something so badly your entire life the feeling of joy is unparalleled. It didn't take me long at all to accept the fact that I was finally going to be a mommy. My dream come true. And then the agony of having that taken from me was so... sad. And of course I thought it was my fault. How could I not. From the very beginning the protective instinct kicks in and if something goes wrong the only thing you can think is that you didn't do EVERYTHING possible to take care of that baby and keep it safe. However, in that day full of grief and tears, I knew beyond any doubt I could ever even imagine, that my Father in Heaven was aware of Jeremy and me and knew the ache we felt. And I could almost literally feel his arms around me and could hear him telling me it would be OK. This feeling was just as strong as the sorrow I felt.

And now look what I have. The most beautiful, darling, wonderful baby girl I could ever have asked for. She is one of my best friends. She brightens my days, she fills me with joy and excitement every day. And I know that things are just as they should be. I know that if I keep trusting in Him that I will continue to be looked after, buoyed up, and led to those things and places in my life that will bring me peace and happiness.

I bring this up because I just read a friends blog who lost a baby of her own not long ago. However, they are expecting again and sound very happy about it. And I believe she knows what I do; that we will undoubtedly have trials in this life but our Heavenly Father will ALWAYS be there for us in our times of need AND in our times of JOY!!!!

Thanks to all of you for your love a support. We love you all for the wonderful parts you play in our lives.

Love,

The Colliers.