What will happen?

One of my biggest downfalls is that I want to make people be how I think they should be. I see so much potential in my loved ones and I tend to be disappointed when they don't meet my expectations of them. When Someone I love decides to make a choice that I believe is wrong it breaks my heart and I find myself putting distance between us to cope. So I wonder how it is going to be when Harlee breaks my heart... When she decides to make a decision that I am totally against. How will I deal? I know that I won't be able to distance myself from her, which is not the best thing to do anyway. And I know I will need to be there for her and let her know how much I love her no matter what. So what will happen? I dread that day and I just pray that I will raise her to be smart and have values so that maybe it won't be as bad as it could be.

Herro

Sorry to all of you who actually read my blog. Nothing exciting to report, and I'm uninspired at this point. Not to say that I do not appreciate what I have, I just don't really know what to write. So, I'll be back some day with more silly babble to entertain you. LOL

A happy day!

well, I don't really have a quote or scripture for today, although I know I could find one if I looked. I just wanted to write about yesterday. My friend Jamee, of 16 years went through the temple yesterday. It was my first time back to the Salt Lake Temple since Jeremy and I were married and it was amazing! The sad spot of the day was that Jeremy was not able to be there with me. However, my dad and I got to go together and that was actually really nice. Jamee looked beautiful...Glowing! And to see her and her husband, Chad together and so happy and in love just topped it all off. I just wanted to say how happy I am for Jamee and her little family. They have worked hard to get to where they are now and I am excited for them to be able to become a forever family this coming Wednesday.
I love that Jeremy and I will be together for all of forever and that all of our children will be sealed to us as an eternal family. I am also so thankful that I am sealed to my mom and dad and sisters. I just love that families really can be FOREVER!
Well, I'm off to church with my parents so they can show off the grand baby before we head home. I hope all of you have an amazing, relaxing Sunday filled with The Spirit!

So, I read this quote and I love it!!

"Holding tight the warm memory of my daughter, I knew that I would be able to fight the darkness as long as I needed to."

Not that I have a lot of darkness surrounding me or anything, but sometimes things are hard for me. I sometimes struggle with my little demons like everyone else. I get disheartened knowing that I will always struggle with things and always have to try to be better, it's just that Harlee gives me hope... Hope that I will be able to endure my struggles. And not just for me, but for her, and Jeremy and the rest of my future children. I don't know if it makes sense to anyone. But it makes complete sense to me.

Nothing at all

I have been having a hard time deciding what to write. I've got nothing. Nothing new has happened. I've just been doing the mom thing. I would really like to go to Bear Lake one more time before the summer ends but I am very excited for Fall. Besides the fact that I can't go swimming, fall is my favotite season. I love the air, the atmosphere, the colors. It feels like everything just slows down a bit in the fall. Besides that there is Haloween. I love halloween. I can't wait to dress Harlee up this year. I don't know what she is going to be yet, but she will be cute.
Anyway, that's enough of my babbeling for the day. Maybe I'll come up with something better soon.

Doctrine and Covenants 68:6

"Wherefore, be of good cheer , and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you; and ye shall bear record of me, even Jesus Christ, that I am the Son of the living God, that I was, that I am, and that I am to come. "

I just found this scripture randomly and loved it. It means so many things to me, so I hope something good will been seen it by you also. I love just looking through the scriptures for nothing in particular because they are filled with hope, and faith, and wisdom, and I can be sure that I will walk away with something that has strengthened my testimony.

Lucky us

So, I love my Mom and Dad in law because they are so good to us. When we got those pictures taken of Harlee a while back (the free ones), we told them about them so that if they wanted any they could go in and get some. Well, when we went over on Sunday they had some there that they had purchased. And What do they do? They give us the big nice one. They really are so kind, and spoil us. I'm so thankful I got such great in laws. So here is the picture they gave us. Harlee is so darn cute! Now we just need some of her and Daddy.

Spreading a little hope.

I wanted to start posting something on Sundays that was uplifting and inspirational but I couldn't think of anything all day yesterday. Then late last night Whitney came into my room and said, "I got this today in church and I really liked it." And then she read me this quote by President Thomas S. Monson.

" My dear sisters, do not pray for tasks equal to your abilities, but pray for abilities equal to your tasks. Then the performance of your tasks will be no miracle, but you will be the miracle."

I just love this so much because it gives me hope that I will be able to be better. As a mother, a wife, a daughter, and a person. I'm so thankful that we have a prophet today that can give such wonderful counsel and who is so inspired. We are truly blessed.

So next week I will try and be prepared with something for Sunday. May you all have a wonderful week, and keep smiling.

A reason to sing

For those of you who don't know, I love music. Maybe not just love, maybe survive by music. Growing up that was my drug. I was never even tempted with drugs or alcohol or smoking because I was addicted to my music.
Well, I was a member of the "Show Choir" in high school. We sang AND danced. It was a lot of fun and we were all very close. We had the most amazing teacher. She had actually been my teacher since freshman year.
Anyway, I did end up getting involved with a boy. Dun dun duh!! Oh boy I loved him. We would ride around together and listen to music in his truck, the big bass between us thudding away. Well, one day we were riding around and I had gotten comfortable enough with him that I decided i could also sing to the music instead of just listen. I don't remember if it was just a song he liked and wanted to hear without interruption or what but he said to me, "Don't ever sing again," or something along those lines. He wasn't a bad guy, I honestly think he was just joking around with me but I took it to heart. It broke it! I mean, I know I'm no pro or anything but I was young and in love and really cared what this kid thought of me. So I went to class the next day and was ready to check out. I wouldn't sing and my teacher wondered what was going on . I ended up telling her the story and she was so upset! I think he must have come to meet me after class that day because I remember her stopping us as we went to walk down the hall and she told him "Don't you ever say that to her again! ..." I can't remember the rest but she mended my heart that day and gave me a reson to sing. And I know that I may be just another student from her past, but I feel like she saved my life. What would I have done without the courage to sing, to have my music? I wouldn't be me. I would be nothing.
So i know that was kind of a weird random story, it's just that I found her an Facebook(which is exactly the reason I love that stupid little site so much) and it made me very emotional seeing her again. She gave me my first solos, and not because I had a great voice, but I think she just knew the love I have for music and didn't want me to lose that ever. She is an amazing woman with a lot of insight and I thank her for her wisdom and her belief in me.
Now i sing often, and usually loud enough for people to hear. I don't want to be the center of attention, I just want to do what I love.