I'm terribly sorry about my last post! I have been in a rut as of late. However, today was wonderful! I got things accomplished that I wanted to , one of my besties, Michelle, is home and I have a lot of exciting things to look forward to in the coming days and weeks. And also, I just felt GOOD. No reason in particular, I just did. BRING ON SUMMER!!!

I would like to put a note in her to all my friends that get neglected by me... which is mainly everyone. It's not that I don't love you all... It's that I struggle with some serious anxiety, and a significant amount of depression. Because of this I tend to get withdrawn and distant, which is totally opposite from the girl most of you probably see face to face. This is something I am working on... I don't love it but it is part of who I am. And I love you all, even when I'm avoiding talking to you or hanging out.

Again I'm sorry for the last post!! I don't want there to be stigmas about these types of things but I also don't feel like I need to be all up in everyone's face with my downer business. So there you have it!!

I will be posting soon.

Debbie Downer. Neg Nancy. Spoil Sport am I.

The Name of my Blog is "No Day But Today" and sometimes that is how I feel... how I get through things, but it's not really how I live my life. I think about the future constantly... all the what ifs and could bes. I'm driven mad by the prospect of things. Torn always by the possible outcomes of my decisions. So maybe I'll have to change the name of my blog. For now, I'm just taking a break. Don't know when I'll be back. I'm trying to focus on real life for a while I guess, instead of this weird cyber world where I sometimes live and cope. Later!

A type of fest which begins with a word I'm not allowed to say....

Ok... I'm not perfect at anything... I'm usually not even great at anything... but there is one thing I AM good at. wanna know what it is? Knowing how to use the words TO, TOO, and TWO! I can't stand how many times I've seen "to" used in place of "too" the last little while and it is seriously driving me crazy! So I'm sorry if anyone thinks I'm being judgmental, or better-than-thou, or whatever but here is a little grammar lesson...

To: (used for expressing motion or direction toward a point, person, place, or thing approached and reached, as opposed to from): They came to the house.

-There were actually 27 definitions for this one but if you are confused look it up-

Two: –noun

1.

a cardinal number, 1 plus 1.

2.

a symbol for this number, as 2 or II.

3.

a set of this many persons or things.

4.

a playing card, die face, or half of a domino face with two pips.

–adjective

5.

amounting to two in number.

—Idioms

6.

in two, into two separate parts, as halves: A bolt of lightning split the tree in two.

And last but certainly THE MOST IMPORTANT of my mean rant session...

TOO:
1.

in addition; also; furthermore; moreover: young, clever, and rich too.

2.

to an excessive extent or degree; beyond what is desirable, fitting, or right: too sick to travel.

3.

more, as specified, than should be: too near the fire.

4.

(used as an affirmative to contradict a negative statement): I am too!

5.

extremely; very: She wasn't too pleased with his behavior.

Ok, now everyone can hate me for being mean but at least I feel better. Phew!

2010 Porsche Cayenne 4dr SUV AWD

I want this car!

Let's Celebrate!

Well, to celebrate my (insert number here)th birthday we met up with my mom and dad in Layton and had lunch at the Golden Corral. They gave me a very nice card and we had a lot of fun... even Harlee was pretty good that day. She was also very cute as you can see in the pictures. She has actually gotten to a point where she likes me to take her picture. Now, you might be wondering from Jeremy's expression if they serve alcohol at the Golden Corral. No, no they don't, he's just a dill weed. LOL He will rarely pose with me without making a face... it takes almost 10 shots to get him to be serious... this time I just gave up on the first try... not my problem if he looks like a drunkard. Silly guy. So after this we went to a couple more places, big lots to look at some furniture(which we ended up getting.. pictures to come... ) and then to Target. There Jeremy went off and bought me my Birthday gift. See this was actually the day before my birthday because Mom and dad had to be in Layton. so we had a good visit with mom and dad then headed home. OH!! Funny/sad side story... As we were all leaving Harlee was very upset, as usual, to say goodbye to my Mom. To comfort her my mom told her it would be OK and that as soon as we were driving Harlee could call her. That didn't help too much but we got her in the car seat and said goodbye. We had barely pulled out of the parking lot and onto the busy street when Harlee, through her tears, said, "Call Grandma.." . LOL So we called and when my mom got on with her she said "Grandma I cried!" my mom said some comforting words and Harlee said "OK." then gave me back the phone without even a goodbye. But she was OK after that. She is getting so big! Anyway.... more to come about my actual birthday... and furniture... and Harlee being so dang cute... (Note to self: caressing face, waking up in night.) There Now I won't forget what stories to tell. I'm off to bed for now. Gonna do a little reading and then get ready for a good day tomorrow. Hope all is well in your worlds my friends. Goodnight!

27!

I had a wonderful 27th birthday! In fact... I had a couple days of birthday fun! There will be pictures and story to come... I'm very tired at the moment, but I will get them posted soon.

The long and winding road

The other day I picked up Jeremy from school and went driving into town. I told him I wasn't sure where we were going but he was OK with it so I just kept driving. I was thinking a quick trip out of town to pepperidge farm... but when I got there I just kept driving... and driving.... and driving. We ended up in Pocatello Idaho! What the??? We stopped and visited their little museum... it was actually pretty cool. Oh!!! In this little museum they have a section with a bunch of medical stuff through the years... I was looking at this one thing thinking it was some type of old fashioned inhaler or something then I read the paper that was curled up in it... (Warning: Explicit material ahead!) I can't remember the exact wording but it said it was for enlarging a penis in length and girth!!! WHAT?!?! I laughed so hard... and Jeremy just stared at the thing forever. I won't tell you what he said about it later. LOL It was clean... you know Jeremy... just funny... and true. I wondered who donated the thing... O.o

Anyway, then we drove through town, hated it, and turned around and came back. It' seems like a fast drive, but it was not. However it was a little adventure for Jeremy, Harlee and I, and I wish I had taken my camera along. Jeremy tried really hard to convince me to drive to Jackson Hole... I might have, had we had more money and didn't have guests coming the next day. But some day soon we are going to do a spontanious road trip to Jackson and I will have my camera and it will be awesome!!

There you have it. Michelle insisted I post about this... so there it is... I hope you all enjoyed.